Things That Heal Me: The Benevolent Universe

The fabric of our universe is not as neutral or negative as you may think. In this physical world, we are the alchemists of our existence, meaning that we are responsible for creating the tone of our experience based off of our perspective and attitude toward all that we encounter. While we are here to achieve certain fixed destinies, such as crossing paths with those we are meant to intertwine with, falling into the right opportunities, and so much more, the magic of each moment lies in our interpretation of what we are experiencing and why.

The interpretations and judgments we make from our experiences in this life paint our path as it unfolds before us. A blown tire may only mean three things: it happened at random, an unknown force threw me off course with a setback to punish me, or a known and trusted force intervened to serve me. Those are your options for perceiving a simple yet frustrating experience such as blowing a tire on the road and having to deal with it. So I bet you're wondering, how on earth would a blown tire serve me? How would being late, stressed out, and dealing with something so unexpected and urgent be helpful to me in any way? That is where the wisdom lies, my friends! Not in understanding or knowing WHY but in trusting that there is a reason, that that reason is benevolent, and that you don't have to understand for it to serve you. 

You do not have to be aware of every little intricacy of your life experience for it to be exactly what it needs to be. Why you may ask? Because of the benevolent universe, of course! Because there is a divinely perfect intelligence underneath all that is and all that moves. A beautifully spun web of silk that catches you, holds you, supports you, guides you, and connects you to all of the things you are meant to know, be, and experience. This web is part of you and all others, as you are a part of the whole of the universe. The fabric of the universe is this web and this web is all that is: the universe and all it contains!

Wild, right? It will take a lot of time to grasp this and integrate it as it goes against our instinct as human beings. As physical earthlings, we must always remember we are dual beings, and we must ALWAYS honor both parts of our being. With that being said, it may feel very natural to your spirit to believe in and trust the benevolent universe. With tools like meditation and divination, our spiritual parts are able to connect to their home state which is spirit and feel infused by this all-knowing, all-connected benevolence that exists everywhere around us and within us. 

The tricky part is when we ask our human parts to trust in this concept. Our bodies are biologically hardwired to separate ourselves from the world around us and do what must be done to survive. This adds a layer of challenge to our experience as dual beings, as the very instincts that keep us alive also separate us from our true life-force energy: spirit. Our ego is designed to keep us alive and separate, while our spirits are designed to move us and connect us. We need both, but balance is key and so is prioritizing what needs to be our anchor to survive in this world. That is the journey from fear to love, from unknown darkness to blind trust; we must find a way to go against a certain part of our instinctual human being and decide that there is something bigger than us that needs us to step aside and let it lead us. That is the ultimate task for the human/spirit hybrid here on earth! To step off the ledge of what we know instinctually and open up to expand beyond our wildest comprehension. To take leaps of faith and watch ourselves be caught by all that is.

So what does the benevolent universe want for us and why does it bring us such pain, heartbreak, and destruction? That's where we have to take our human caps off as much as possible and see the bigger picture: the hard things are for our highest good. This is a really challenging idea to discuss because how do you tell someone who has endured unthinkable violence and abuse that it was for their highest good? How do you convince a mother who lost her child that it was for the highest good of both her and her child? You don't. Our human hearts and minds, for the most part, aren't going to be able to accept this as universal law because it contradicts our emotions. That is okay! That is part of being human and part of the learning curve of navigating this world from both a human and a spiritual perspective. Part of us may understand, especially later down the road, what was brought to us from certain negative or traumatic experiences, but that still will never justify or satisfy our emotions from the painful experiences themselves. 

This is the paradox of our being! Part of us may always feel like it is unfair and horrible while the other part of us acknowledges this and also knows what it did for us. This paradoxical phenomenon of trying to digest heavy life experiences from both angles is actually what I would call grief. The understanding and holding of both immense pain and suffering, but also incredible love and universal support is grief. The act of trying to process and digest all of these contradicting pieces is the act of grieving. 

It takes a lot of courage, a lot of self-love, and a lot of existential juggling to be able to hold both aspects of your experience. It may often feel as though you are swinging back and forth between the two. Immense anger and pain from your experiences may slip into moments of understanding and gratitude for what it has brought you spiritually, without invalidating any of the heartbreak or denial that you are experiencing. You can understand what a loss has brought to you spiritually without forcing yourself to accept your loss in the first place. The heart can take its time to process loss, while our spirit feels antsy to understand it. You can feel gratitude for the perspective and the redirection loss brings without feeling grateful for what it has taken from you. You can also understand that the benevolent universe's job is not to please you 24/7 but to guide you forward, sometimes into and through excruciating experiences. The benevolent universe's job is ultimately to be a loving but helpful spiritual parent to us, walking us through existence, however beautiful and devastating it may be. The benevolent universe isn't benevolent because it protects us from what hurts us, but rather because it surrounds us with love and all we will ever need, it takes our hand, looks us in the eye, and says "you are not alone. You will be okay again and I know how you get there."

When it comes to the benevolent universe, it's all about learning to trust that it serves your highest good, from a place filled solely with pure love. The benevolent universe is not an authoritarian man, it is not the final judgment or the decider of all deeds, nor is it the backdrop for what is right or wrong. The benevolent universe is simply an intelligent love that seeks to bring us closer and closer to its rose-colored hues. The benevolent universe is a guide, not a decider. We are the deciders, the creators, and the alchemists of our experience and the universe is the biggest, most powerful tool we will ever have at our disposal! We decide everything about our life path, destiny, and experience. The universe simply helps us find our way once we incarnate and lose our conscious awareness (for the most part). The universe is our reminder that we are on a mission, one that we have crafted entirely of ourselves, for ourselves. One that is rooted completely in love. It remembers each twist and turn on our path plan, every tear and laugh, and especially the times we will need its guidance the most. 

The benevolent universe intends for us to grow. In our capacity to be ourselves authentically, express ourselves, feel and experience love, intimacy, creativity, joy, play, pleasure, and all that exists. The benevolent universe intends only for us to become more and more conscious and expressive through the energy of love. Beneath all that we experience and endure, is the intention to open us to more love. Therefore, beneath all that the benevolent universe holds and all of the webs it helps us spin and sustain, there is only love. Only the desire for us to become more of it. The benevolent universe has only one intention and that intention is for us to heal ourselves until we can feel all the love possible for our sweet human bodies to feel! 

The intention behind all that is and all that happens is divine love. Give your human parts the space they need to grasp this without invalidating the pain and suffering endured, but know that everything is ultimately pointing you toward the direction of love. You don't have to see it or understand it to benefit from it, but there is one thing I hope for with all of my heart...

At the very least, amongst all the pain and suffering you endure in this world, I hope that you feel it. 

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